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| Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing in
Into my little world
Painful to me
Pierce right through me
Can't you understand
Oh my little girl
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
done with everything..........
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| I've known it from the start all these good ideas will tear your brain apart.
Scared but you can follow me I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die.
BORED. NOT MUCH TO SAY.........
THIRTEEN RANDOM THINGS YOU LIKE:
.: hair dye
.: money
.: mr. jake
.: piercings
.: dancing and singing with stephanie in the car
.: window chalk
.: talks with friends
.: halloween
.: music
.: harry potter
.: my piggy shoes
.: driving around the lake and listening to a7x
.: being random
TWELVE MOVIES:
.: the goonies
.: life as a house
.: eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
.: garden state
.: closer
.: chicago
.: sugar and spice
.: united state of leland
.: harry potter 3
.: dangerous lives of alter boys
.: the notebook
.: y tu mama tambien
ELEVEN GOOD BANDS/ARTISTS:
.: the used
.: avenged sevenfold
.: the birthday massacre
.: my chemical romance
.: the distillers
.: coheed and cambria
.: senses fail
.: old good charlotte
.: tsunami bomb
.: a river forth
.: five minute ride
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU:
.: i have a vagina
.: i have 20 piercings and two tattoos
.: i have a borderline personality disorder
.: i desperatley want to be a suicide girl
.: i have an unhealty obsession with jepha howard, synyster gates, and clive owen
.: i have a H.U.G.E. freaking secret that not even my best friends know about, and no one will ever know until i die.
.: i live in my attic
.: i'm still a boy band geek at heart
.: i effing love harry potter
.: i'm a blexican
NINE GOOD FRIENDS:
.: stephanie
.: christie
.: dana
.: nathan
.: nick
.: jessica j.
.: linequa
.: blair
.: calvin
EIGHT FAVORITE FOODS/DRINKS :
.: funnel cake
.: smirnoff
.: string cheese
.: mikes hard lemonade
.: ramen noodles
.: fanta pineapple
.: double cheeseburger from mcdonalds
.: thin mint girl scout cookies
SEVEN THINGS YOU WEAR DAILY:
.: my chones, hopefully
.: an over the shoulder bolder holder
.: pants
.: band shirt
.: knee socks
.: vans or converse shoes
.: bracelets
SIX THINGS THAT YOU HATE:
.: spiders
.: clowns
.: cocky or fake people
.: close-minded people
.: feeling like a third-wheel
.: the fact that a *certain someone* is here but for all intents and purposes, they're gone.
FIVE THINGS YOU DO DAILY:
.: over-analyze things
.: listen to a7x
.: sleep
.: eat
.: talk to friends
FOUR SHOWS YOU WATCH:
.: nip/tuck
.: law and order svu
.: friends
.: desperate housewives
THREE PEOPLE YOU'VE KISSED:
.: juan
.: dana
.: jake
TWO THINGS YOU WANT:
.: confidence/self esteem
.: to stop doing stupid shit
ONE PERSON YOU WANT TO SEE RIGHT NOW:
.: actually, i'll be seeing five wonderful, talented, sexy guys in 18 days: synyster gates, m shadows, the rev, zacky vengence, and johnny christ. | | |
| Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved
Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight
Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away
Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight
So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
fun weekend. saw the lovely kyla and sara. oh, by the way, i watched the first two-part episode of the new season of degrassi. let me tell you, draw-mah. i'll send you two the link. got paid friday and spent it all friday. stephanie came up. went to the edge of hell with her, nick and nathan. saw ben and had a mild panic attack. i played with a rat. me and nathan got seperated from stephanie and nick in the haunted house. fell all over the place. danced in the laser rooms. steph and nick partied it up in heaven while nathan and i got told we were going to hell. went to the plaza and hung out with chris, kenny, and phillip. a hobo yelled at me and nick when we were walking around a fountain. nathans car key broke in heif somehow. called christie to come get us but she couldnt. called laszlo and evan and they came and got us. we packed it in beaner style with nathan and evan in front, and me, steph, laszlo, and chris in back. then we replaced chris with nick. i didnt feel like dying since i was sprawled across everyone in the backseat so we took nick back. went to nathans so he could get his spare key. laszlo fell asleep on me. i dont know how, since his car was screaming from all the junk in the trunk. i bet there were sparks flying all over the place. went to my house so i could get my car. made nathan drive so i could eat a salad. went back to the plaza to get nathans car. raced each other on the highway doing 90. got home at 2:30 and passed out. slept till 1:00 in the afternoon. went to work. saw matt. talked with him all day. missed my dinner break because i didnt want to leave before i could say bye to him and brandon. went home and passed out till noon the next day. prettied myself all up for matt and he wasnt even working. derrick and calvin were stoned off their asses. too freakin funny. went home and fell asleep till 11:30. watched desperate housewives, ren and stimpy, and degrassi. listened to some music and fell asleep. i'm realizing i sleep a hell of a lot. ah well. have class in an hour so i be off like a dress on prom night.
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| because i have nothing better to talk about:
must be your skin that i'm sinking in :: must be for real cause now i can feel :: and i didn't mind :: it's not my kind :: it's not my time to wonder why :: everything gone white :: and everything's grey :: now you're here now you're away :: i don't want this :: remember that :: i'll never forget where you're at :: don't let the days go by :: glycerine
i'm never alone :: i'm alone all the time :: are you at one :: or do you lie :: we live in a wheel :: where everyone steals :: but when we rise it's like strawberry fields
if i treated you bad :: you bruise my face :: couldn't love you more :: you got a beautiful taste :: don't let the days go by :: could have been easier on you :: i couldn't change though i wanted to :: should have been easier by three :: our old friend fear and you and me :: glycerine :: don't let the days go by :: glycerine
i needed us more :: when we wanted us less :: i could not kiss just regress :: it might just be :: clear simple and plain :: that's just fine :: that's just one of my names :: don't let the days go by :: could've been easier on you :: glycerine | | |
| i'm updating finally. but my life's not too interesting. i had the best 18th birthday thanks to my uber awesome friends. i smoked a cigarette for the first time in my life. i NEVER thought i would do that. im so anti-smoking its not even funny. i would have bet my house and my family that cigarette smoke would never touch my lungs. so i would be a homeless orphan right now. i got into a fight with an amazing person over it too. but in a way i think it brought us closer. to lung cancer that is. hah. saw the avenged sevenfold video for "bat country" and "i caught fire" from the used. can we say double creamage. went into priscillas for the first time. saw things i dont think i needed to see. bought some flavored lube that i've now formed an addiction to. had a run-in with the cops. could've been tazered and/or arrested. gave them fake info. then they put my friend in the backseat of the cop car. crashed on the floor of a friends basement. saw some weird ass shit on tv late at night. enrolled for school. almost hit a dog with my car. met new people. talked with old friends. skinny-dipped for the first time. cried like i've never cried before, not even at funerals, when i got into a car wreck, or birth. nick and i decided that this year we're going to do things we've never done before, like ice skate, use the self-checkout thing at walmart, eat octopus, apply for suicide girls, have a threesome:) oh yea, new year, new things to traumatize us. | | |
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